Monday, October 24, 2011

SECRETS

I just needed to get them off my chest.
So here you are:

1) I am terrified of children.  I have no idea why. I guess my mind doesn't understand the concept of talking to someone who is smaller than me.

2) I have black combat boots. And i love them(: I have never worn them to school or any place that someone might recognize me. But someday i will and i will smile.

3) whenever my dad comes to visit, i dress like a goth. FULL  ON. Black makeup, concealer on my lips, hair over my eyes.  GOTH.  He thinks i am one. But i'm not.  I'm actually quite opposite. It is my way of rebelling. and i like being the bad girl for once. (this is also where my combat boots come in)

4) I make harry potter connections in my brain almost every day.

5) I'm obsessed with harry potter.

6) I fell in love with a boy once. or at least as close to love as you can get when you are 12....but i really thought i loved him. and some times i still think about him.

7) sometimes i gag at my own reflection. Not on purpose, it literally just happens.. is that normal? I'm a tad bit worried...

8) I hate being alone. not because i'm afraid of the emptiness but because when i'm alone i travel into my soul and  i'm afraid of my soul

9) I act like i'm 2 at home and 57 at school.

10) I have a crush on a boy this year, which i promised myself i wouldn't do.

11) I think i started the crimping fad at my school, even though i really didn't....

12) I also think i started the "dying your hair dark" fad.

13) I wish i really did start those fads...

14) I lie in seminary. a lot.

15) whenever i laugh at someone's joke.. its a fake laugh. NO MATTER WHAT. it really is never a genuine laugh....poop. i think i might have lost my real laugh....

16) i hate someone.

and this is my biggest secret:

17) i have a secret that isn't about me... but has affected me more than anything in my entire life.

So that's all.  I hope you liked stepping into my brain for a few minutes, or seconds, depends on how fast a reader you are(: have a beautiful day!

4 comments:

  1. i don't think you will actually realize how much i laughed when i was reading this. i was LITERALLY laughing out loud, not just when i say {in my head} this is funny, i will tell the person that i laughed {in my head}, acting like i laughed out loud. but with this, i was chuckling and laughing because half of those scrects are mine, and the other half are just funny. and now i will copy you, because you are a tred setter. i love you.
    Love:Sarah Janelle.
    aka. nelle.
    not really. and this is a novel practically.

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  2. i love you. and i love this comment. and i love how you are going to do this too! and i secretly wish it was a longer novel(:

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  3. if you would like i could write you a novel. really. i will write like a documentary about you. i will study you every day i see you and write it all down and write about how i think you are, and what you are and my view of you and then i will give it to you. im doing it even if you don't want me to. im doing. and i will give it to you. obvi. i love you.
    love: sarah janelle.

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  4. i think i'm going to cry. that was beautiful. you are the sweetest. of all the sweets. thank you. i am so excited to receive this novel. and i enjoy everything about you. when i see you i breathe you in! the air around you is my favorite oxygen. i adore you!!

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